Rising above is so hard at times, you always want to take the high road but at times it is so much easier to take the slum road and play dirty with others. Some people live their lives this way. I know a person that this is how they live their everyday life, they tear people down, criticize everything that they do and they feel that this is ok.
I have always asked how people can be this way, the answer I get is maybe that is the way they are raised, that is their personality, or I just don't know. People that are so negative and want to bring everyone down like that are just miserable people. They rarely are happy, they have few things in life to be happy about and I feel like their mission in life is to make you to feel as miserable as they are.
Many times in my life I have felt like that I did not know why I was here but never did I get to the point that I wanted to make someone feel so horrible about themselves. I know that I am not the only one in the boat, it took me a long time to find my self esteem again after being told by this person over and over again that I was dumb, stupid, a drama queen (lets mention I was diagnosed with lupus during all this) and too crazy to be a parent. Everyone around me knew what I was going through and knew what I was dealing with infertility and just being diagnosed with lupus. This person was suppose to be a person that was suppose to be a support, but they were so miserable that they could not see what they were doing.
So what I had to do is RISE UP, find who my true support system was, I found that I had an amazing family that stood behind Matt and I. I could not have asked for better. I began to pray for God to help me find the strength to stand tall.
I will always remember
"Stand firm, and you will win life." Luke 21:19
I had to remember to stand without the negativity. I know the person that I am, I am a good person, a honest and Godly person. I can not believe that I let one person have so much control over me. But never again. I hope that this post helps just one person know that you can stand tall, rise above and step out on faith.
"I can do all this through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13
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Our Fur Babies
"A Righteous man cares for the need of his Animals" Proverbs 12:10
It has been the two of us from the beginning. I had a miscarriage in 2003, this was after being married 5 months at the age of 18 and the first time being away from home. Matt and I were devastated, we were crushed is more like it. My husband the big bad Marine was in tears in the waiting room that day. A couple days after that he came home with a surprise this sweet black and white hound dog that also had been through a ruff couple of weeks, he had been taken back to the shelter 3 times and was going to be put down the day that Matt went to get us a puppy, Matt said that he was meant to bring him home. We named him Chesty (yes ooh-rah) and he was the sweetest dog that we could have asked for, he traveled the 6 hour drive back and forth from Beaufort, SC and Grifton, NC twice a month with no problem. I feel that God put our sweet Chesty in our life.
Once we moved back home in 2006 we got our Bandit, sweet and innocent, not a mean bone in his body. He was the runt of the litter of puppies that my mother in laws dog had and he was the last to be picked and since he was also black and white we felt that Chesty and Bandit would make the best of brothers.
Then we went crazy, knocked our head or something but decided that two dogs are not enough..NO!! Lets add a Dalmatian, Matt was on the fire department and he wanted a fire dog and I said why not. Ember came into our lives in 2011. What a joy she is, she is a great joy full of energy but so lovable all in the same.
It has been the two of us from the beginning. I had a miscarriage in 2003, this was after being married 5 months at the age of 18 and the first time being away from home. Matt and I were devastated, we were crushed is more like it. My husband the big bad Marine was in tears in the waiting room that day. A couple days after that he came home with a surprise this sweet black and white hound dog that also had been through a ruff couple of weeks, he had been taken back to the shelter 3 times and was going to be put down the day that Matt went to get us a puppy, Matt said that he was meant to bring him home. We named him Chesty (yes ooh-rah) and he was the sweetest dog that we could have asked for, he traveled the 6 hour drive back and forth from Beaufort, SC and Grifton, NC twice a month with no problem. I feel that God put our sweet Chesty in our life.
Once we moved back home in 2006 we got our Bandit, sweet and innocent, not a mean bone in his body. He was the runt of the litter of puppies that my mother in laws dog had and he was the last to be picked and since he was also black and white we felt that Chesty and Bandit would make the best of brothers.
Then we went crazy, knocked our head or something but decided that two dogs are not enough..NO!! Lets add a Dalmatian, Matt was on the fire department and he wanted a fire dog and I said why not. Ember came into our lives in 2011. What a joy she is, she is a great joy full of energy but so lovable all in the same.
On a January 31, 2017 our sweet Chesty crossed the rainbow bridge after a long battle with congestive heart failure. That day I laid with him for the last time, kissed his sweet nose for the last time and told him that I loved him for the last time. That was so hard, it was like loosing a child, we saved him from death and this time we could not, the vet said that we gave him a wonderful life but the road was at the end and the rainbow has begun, that was the worst words that I have ever heard. That day we said good bye and be a good boy for the last time.
Many people criticized us for the money that we spent on Chesty to keep hi alive and comfortable for the last two years of his life. What people do not understand that we do not have kids, our fur babies are our kids, and I ask what is wrong with that. Yes we spoil them, yes we plan most of our lives around them but they are our family and as I sit here writing this I have one one either side of me. Dogs will show you the most unconditional love, they are always there for you when you are happy, sad, mad and anywhere in between. You can not say that for many humans.
As we embark on our adoption adventure we want to make sure that we do not leave our first born out, we want to make sure that they know that they are still loved and they are not put on the back burner. I know that this is not going to be easy as they are not use to having a little person in the house but as time goes on I hope that they can get use to the idea, and enjoy being a big brother and sister.
Life
Life is crazy sometimes, you seem to get wrapped up in work, kids, housework and seem to forget to stop and smell the roses. In the rat race of life I forgot sometimes that I needed to make time for the the one that truly mattered, yes my family means everything, yes I need my job but GOD. He is the one that will never fail you, will always be there to listen and never judge you.
"the lord will fight for you, you will only need to be still." Exodus 14:14
This spoke to me this morning, I read this and this is so true. I try to do everything, please everyone and there is only one that I need to answer to, the only one that will always be in my corner.
I am blessed to have an amazing sister in law (she is more like a sister), we are able to grow in our faith together. When life drags us down we are able to call on each other and we are there to find a helpful scripture that brings us up.
"Listen to good ADVICE if you want to live well" Proverbs 15:31
Life is the reason it has been a week since I have blogged, I can make every excuse in the book but in the end your decisions are what you make and that is what you have to answer for, I have decided to live for life, live for myself and love life!!
" His Love Gives Life" John 10: 10-11
"the lord will fight for you, you will only need to be still." Exodus 14:14
This spoke to me this morning, I read this and this is so true. I try to do everything, please everyone and there is only one that I need to answer to, the only one that will always be in my corner.
I am blessed to have an amazing sister in law (she is more like a sister), we are able to grow in our faith together. When life drags us down we are able to call on each other and we are there to find a helpful scripture that brings us up.
"Listen to good ADVICE if you want to live well" Proverbs 15:31
Life is the reason it has been a week since I have blogged, I can make every excuse in the book but in the end your decisions are what you make and that is what you have to answer for, I have decided to live for life, live for myself and love life!!
" His Love Gives Life" John 10: 10-11
Life
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