I never thought that at 33 I would be diagnosed with disease!! When I got told that I had a disease I was devastated. I didn't know what to do, where to turn. I blocked everyone out, I didn't want to talk about it. I turned to the internet...... That was the wrong choice. You find every horrible thing that can come from MCTD. A long life dealing with pain, and a lot of pain, to the point that you may not be able to work. WHAT!?! Not be able to work, I have to work, we are trying to adopt a child, then it hit me is that going to crush my dreams of having a child. All the thoughts that I had where me in a bed, not being able to move and my husband having to wait on me hand and foot. That is not me. I went into a depression to the point that I tried to give up. Then one day it hit me. I AM NOT A QUITTER and I don't give up. I got back into church, found friends that cared about me (that is another entry) and the will to stand up to MCTD.
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